Suffice it to say that I am bored out of my wits, which explains why I'm posting so randomly. [Hm. Something tells me that expression is a little off -.- .. I'm using it anyway. :D]
Sometimes I actually believe [or fool myself into believing..?] that I enjoy school days more than I do weekends [except for the fact that service is during the weekend :D], because at least there are what I consider 'tangible things to do'.
Which naturally excludes work.
I suppose.. in school, I receive more opportunities to store treasures up in Heaven. (: I get to impact lives, bring joy and comfort in the name of my Father, for His kingdom, and it makes sense to me that I be doing that all the time rather than mugging all the time.
[Then again, I shouldn't feel that way since being at home should also present opportunities to impact lives- lives that ought to be so much closer to heart: my family. And yet it's difficult to be able to truly impact people who expect that much out of you and are thus, perhaps, unlikely to respond as dramatically to or be as overwhelmed by the same little acts of kindness done for friends.. No wait, that isn't right either. T___T]
Lord, I need a breakthrough; I need mentality- and heart-surgery. And not just for that matter. :/
Every now and then I question why it's so difficult to love, why love defined by the typical human being is so bias and so unfaithful and fades so easily.. But only one answer ever pops up: we are but human. And it's so frustrating. Contrary to popular notions, I don't believe loving someone ever was meant to be painful; love never was meant to cause hurt to anyone. Is it not only because of selfishness and pride that love leaves everyone bruised and broken?
God, teach me to perfect my love. Let Your love overtake mine to flow from my heart and into the hearts and lives of others. Amen. (:
TOMORROW'S A MONDAY. The phrase 'Monday blues' exists not in my vocabulary ^^ [Alright, it does, but I shall deny its applicability.. Oh, no such word? Wouldn't be the first time. :P] JC life really is too short. So much to do yet so little time. Come on, sense of urgency! Strike me now, please! I will work so, so hard for you, Lord.
It occurs to me that it's been quite a while since I've woken up to sunlit sheets of rain upon my bedroom window. And along with a whole lot of other things, I miss that so much..
